I agree with that. I like the constant struggle to beat myself too. I think we all do. My thinking is that if I didn't have a meet looming, I would coast on some days, make excuses, whatever. With a meet looming, I believe I am more consistent in my effort.
Interesting insight though.
I am Anton Zdravko Martin!
Best meet lifts: Sq 150 Kg (330 lb), Bench 120 Kg (264), DL 160 (352) @89 Kg (197)
Best gym lifts: Sq 375, Bench 275 (pause), DL 370 @205 or less
Goals beyond my wildest dreams, 600 Kg raw total, 200/160/240
Hack away at anything which isn't essential. Do what you love, and do it often. Fazc.