Maintaining your strength, and increasing, at a lower weight is awesome Jim! Never, ever ever stop!
I want you to know that your strength through these times builds me up. You didn't jump off a building. Your uncles choices in life were based off his own circumstances, interests and motivations.
Don't ever do something, or not do, if you think you will regret it later!
I spend all night scared of tomorrow, only reason I aint killin, suns up, when it gets dark im back to the park, cut through the back im after the heart, creepin through your hallway with a knife, had it all planned, therapist callin me all day, I know you love it when I eat meat, I love it when the brains hit the concrete!