I agree with that. I like the constant struggle to beat myself too. I think we all do. My thinking is that if I didn't have a meet looming, I would coast on some days, make excuses, whatever. With a meet looming, I believe I am more consistent in my effort.
Interesting insight though.
I am Anton Zdravko Martin!
Best meet lifts: Sq 150 Kg (330 lb), Bench 120 Kg (264), DL 160 (352) @89 Kg (197)
Best gym lifts: Sq 375, Bench 280 (pause), DL 385 @205 or less
Goals beyond my wildest dreams, 600 Kg raw total, 200/160/240
Hack away at anything which isn't essential. Do what you love, and do it often. Fazc.
Everything competes for recovery so more assistance is not always the best idea. miked96